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100th entry.

End of Work Experience Programme. It was fun(: Miss all of them already. Pretty blessed to have Jayce as a partner laa. Imagine if I were working with [insert name here]...*pukes* Meanieee. =X Our W and L handsigns rock-_-" Wrote cards for all of them and handed in the report yesterday...but we'll still be going back for surprise visits(: Can't wait. Oh yes. Can't wait for training. Haven't been training for a zillion years=X Can't wait for the Korea trip too. Have been winter-shopping these days. Have not started holiday homework too. Printed Pure Lit Assignment already. Hohoho. That's a start, right.

_{Some songs just make you cry... like this.}

Back.


After a gazillion years=X Done studying, done with EOYs long ago, done with CL O's yesterday. Done with getting back okay-but-RFMMI(room for much more improvement)-results. Umm...YAY?? -__-" It's nice to have studied hard and know your material well. I like the satisfaction of knowing what to expect and getting what I expected. Hmm. Continue studying for the holidays! A Maths Re-paper! :D

Lots happened. Mugging. CL lessons. CL lessons. CL lessons. Fruit Basket:P (Jia!) Track treasurer. Model Class!Cross-country. Who was that super tracker who got 382 out of...386? Oh yes, NOT me. Gonna run like crazy next year. Top 20! Hrmph. -__-" Rahhh. Lots are happening and will be happening too. Choral night. :( Seeing them onstage, really miss drama lessons like mad. Ryan and Joyce! Qian gu jia ren gu lai xi ah. Throw then throw lah! Go Geylang for what? Yunpei's sock! Strong butts! Igloo house! Shuai prefect! 50-50! No butt teacher! Roxy footwear! Mr Tang forced-wanna-be-_-" (good thing not) Mixed feelings. Work Experience from 4th to 19th November. Overseas to Korea from 4th to 11th December. There's barely time for anything else. Will be missing Track Camp, which makes me feel like dying, a rare feeling=X Exaggeration. Work hard, play hard. Happy holidays(:

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I will study hard.

Today was last training till after exams. Have to go self-jogging for the next few weeks, or I'll probably rust eternally=X. Caught cinderella story, it was total overdose-of-sugary-sweetness and happily-ever-after-fairytale. Not exactly my kind of movie coz I'm not those tear-at-happy-endings kind of person. But we were laughing quite a lot and I needed that(: Yayy.

Hao Xiong Di rocks. =P
First was Gui and Bie, then was Dou Jiang and You Tiao, Love Contract quotes, Daisy and Sunflower(lol!), Firefly and Dragonfly(!!), and now fellow freaky self-pictures(: We rock laaa.

有话想对你讲 你眼睛却装忙
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放
这个世界约好一起逛_______

[11.21pm]: The 360 degree change in 12 hours.

Hahaha. Left the house quite early and went roaming around. Very tired near noon as expected. Back to normal soon as expected. Met Ferleen and PS, planning to watch movie but no time slot as half-expected=X Took neos, waited for ten thousand years for machine to load loll. --waiting-- haha. Before that we were taking part in a walking marathon, walking to and fro haha. Left, left, left right left! *90 degrees turn* hahaha. Ended up not eating dinner afterall. Too full from marche icecream and brownie. Waiting for others to eat while watching is damn boring. Hahaha.


[7.21am]: Slept for 2 hours. Looking like a zombie-freak at 4.30am. Wrote out all the 4 CL ci yu shou ce words for nearly 6 hours. My right hand hurts like hell. Then I couldn't sleep and finished 3/4 box of milo ball. I hate it. Water starts coming out of nowhere, spilling out of my eyes. Out of control. *laughs. I was what, hiding under the desk, listening to the radio and singing loudly..? Can't remember. It seemed unreal. The maid was snoring. I was alone near dawn, looking like an idiot and everyone was asleep. The whole neighbourhood was. I love the darkness around. When I don't bother turning on the table lamp. I shall recover soon though, got to freshen myself up for a brand new day. Haha. A few hours and I will be ready to bounce and jump around.

Haha, if only you will see what I look like now. I'm a freak I'm a freak I'm a freak.

Went to check out the work experience job at Clementi today. Care Hut is cute(: Think I will enjoy being with the kids...so maybe it's a good thing I didn't get into the First Choice, though it means not getting to work with Jac since we both made the exactly same choices o.O heh. I like the children(: The Care Hut is just this small and cosy room that the kids do everything in. I had two clingy girls in the 2 hours spent there already(: And we played taboo. Very funnn. The kids were noisy:D But they were very well behaved in public when we went for lunch together. Hmmm looking forward to the EOY programme yayyy.
Then I spent the whole day thinking of you.

爱像地心引力 无法抗拒
一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意
人群之中我只能看见你
爱像地心引力 没有空隙
一天一天 不见你也在想你_________

Start of September Holidays.
End of Term 3.
Start of Term 4.
Start of EOYs.
End of EOYs.
Start of CL O'levels.
End of CL O'levels.
Start of EOY Program.
End of EOY Program.
End of 2004.

I have to stop going online. Tsk, time to draw up timetable, time to study, do revision. Time is just like sand, slipping out of your fingers. You feel its presence, but you can't stop it from leaving you. Just printed the Progress Report, and I wonder what is happening to me. I always deprove in Term 3, probably because of the post-nationals-slack-mood. But apparently 3 subject teachers claim that I've improved..? I must be seeing sounds and hearing things. o.O My physics is a.t.r.o.c.i.o.u.s. It's just like quicksand, the more I struggle, the more I fa(i)ll=X Tests on saturday do not help in my results at all. Friday nights are supposed to be the night everyone does nothing. Freaks like me who sleep at 2am daily on weekdays will end up falling asleep on the desk after reading page two of her notes, then waking up at midnight, only to switch off the lights and find a more comfortable place to sleep aka the bed. And tada, next morning, face the test with this -__-" expression.


`Waiting.
Not knowing what I'm waiting for.
I'll be waiting for you.
Yes, what a pride of a fool.
I'll still be foolishly waiting for you_______

Had the Health Zone Competition today at the Health Promotion Board. And I only knew about the presentation yesterday night at 11pm! ha.ha.ha. When I was still rushing my NYAA. But finally completed it! yay!! Ms Tan gave comments with profound words-_-" I have a liar for a piano teacher! "Karin has been enthusiastic and passionate about music, showing good performance and results. Well done!" ahahaha. Ms Lim rocks:P I have been trying hard to hyper today because slept at 3am today morning, rushing the presentation and NYAA. ahhh. Hao xiong di baked me a chocolate chip cookie again today!! Tasted like Famous Amous! :D Yummm. Hao xiong di rocks. The so called competition ended at 3 because we were the first group. bleahh. Wasn't what I had expected. We did okay though. Should have gone for training..pole vault!! :( Nevermind. Headache was killing me anyway. Rahhh.

I like Twelfth Night! The movie is so interesting(: ..."If music be the food of love, play on, give me excess of it, that, surfeiting, the appetitte may sicken and so die." Hmmm. Okay I like Grass Is Singing too. Pure Lit rocks(: ...Suddenly remembered of something. I accidentally swallowed bits of a plastic sweet wrapper just now. O.O Hopefully nothing happens. =X

你会感受爱 感受恨 感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方 等待爱飞翔______

hao xiong dis(:

Back to SVPS yesterday. I was bored=X Must be because of hao xiong di...we were fooling around after teachers' day celebrations and even played badminton? Haha I haven't played badminton since...Ferleen's birthday party last year! Whoa I still remember. The two of us were umm dunno-doing-what and kept going to the toilet more than 5 times in an hour. -___-" Was too active laming around that suddenly very anti-climax after leaving the school=X Hmm and hao xiong di's chocolate cookie rocks. Yumm. Very touched(:

Joined the alumni. I don't feel like going back anymore. We can't even walk around the school compounds. Had to stay in the hall. Blah what's the point. And so few people went yesterday that it will probably reduce to zero next year? Can't even remember my exclassmates anymore:( And they had this time limit from 1.30 to 3.00pm..when all the students left already. Hmph I wanted to see my south view town buddies! Or rather, just that buddy la(: Went to town as usual after that. Haha funny things happened...especially that Beckam guy and when we were at macs and stupidly ordered the large ice lemon tea. Don't know who complaining about the drink too large, not nice etc then end up drank most of it ahahha. I mean "sucked" most of it. lol. Then that busty woman thing oh man nearly died laughing. We looked silly walking to and fro ahahaha. *Nudges her shoulder*--"Excuse me, can I borrow your handphone?" lolll. Hmm then had a good time talking all the way home on the bus. Old friends rock(:

而我对你的期待
被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块
要怎么拼凑跟重来

终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白_____　

Negative thoughts. Erased.
I was rude. I shut myself in my room whenever you people come. Why? Because my attitude sucks and I show no respect to elders. Why not try another reason: I can't bear to be involved in fake conversations and be equally fake, just like you all. I am fake enough already, thank you very much.

I have found myself a new strategy. I'm so friendly that I've decided to play music right in the living room. Why? Because the computer is here. And I'm listening to Jay Chou. I unintentionally blast my favourite songs. Long Quan. Nuo Fu. Zhi Zhan Zhi Shang. Ban Shou Ren. I sing along, to drown out all your adult conversations, usually around the topic of "our children" and "the government". I hate whatever I hear from you all 99% of the time. You all love to criticise, but typical of how adults function, you criticise everyone but yourself. You don't like what you hear from me, but that doesn't mean I do not have independent ears and an independent mind. I'd like to stun you with my own set of criticism, which usually revolves around the topic of "the lovely adults I know". But I always keep my well of silence; you're too unworthy. I loathe you and I show it. No, there's nothing wrong with that, I'd rather have an enemy than a backstabber as a friend. I'm not interested in anything that involves you, thank you very much. Why? Because I have drop-dead lovely hypocrites as relatives.

This is my house. I can do whatever I like. I don't visit you, so if you visit me, a very warm welcome to you. I'm not being sarcastic, I'm just being YOU. I love you all so much.

問自已沒有你我行不行
顯微鏡裡看愛情
殘酷的放大所有愛的原因

遇見妳之後愛上妳然後恨透妳
原來愛是回不去的旅行
親愛的讓我忘記 妳那些事情
我終於看仔細

When I said go I never meant away...

A whole group of us were at You Xin's house after school yesterday. Cross country was cancelled coz of the rain. Wonder when it will be postponed to. But anyway I will most probably be walking. again. Remembered last year was walking with Suet, then we ran only at the last part and were positions 200+th? Hmm kind of regretted it. Migraines suck. So do unrecovered sprained ankles. =( Actually it was quite a good thing we didn't have to go back to Macritchie yesterday. Would have spoiled everyone's moods. You Xin's house rocks! :D And we watched The Last Samurai againn. Jac's heart broke for the millionth time lol. And I saw mimi!! Ahh so cutee. Everyone cheered at the part where that sickening guy was stabbed by the flying sword. Woohoo. The living room rocks. We looked like we were having a sleepover coz of the blankets and cushions in front of the television provided by kind You Xin(: It was super cold coz of the rain. Hmm then people were playing all the super nice piano pieces. I love all the disney songs(: Love Marriage D'Amour too. And Tong Chong is so pro! Then we took UN pictures ahahaha. From tallest to un-tallest(: Left at around 7..? And we talked about XX all the way to the bus stop-_-" haha XX=cha1 cha1 =X

Jiayou for the Bronze...

This week passed really fast. We never ever got to present Edgar Degas for English. I do not like Mr Paul Tan, especially after conversations discussing about him with Kylie and Ying Xu. English lessons are so damn slack. I seriously haven't learned anything during English lessons since Sec 1. Okay, so Mrs Heng taught us functional writing. Oh as if I remember anything now. Can't even recall the format of eye witness reports. All I remember are her unfruitful co-operative group sessions where she does her clap-two-times, raises-hand-for-attention thing. Bleahh rambling. Whatever. Oh yes suddenly remembered about the New South Wales thing. I actually got a distinction for English. And that was because the whole class was supposed to take part it in. I remember myself nearly falling asleep doing those heavy 80 questions, barely reading the last few passages, guessing some answers etc. Haha if only I get this kind of luck for more important events. The last time I got a distinction for this was during Primary 4 for English..? bleahhh. The rest were participations all the wayyy. I'm not supposed to be a lucky person.

我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖 我很快就离开

我呸谁也不服谁你是龟我是鳖 啦啦啦啦啦 啦啦啦...

Awww. We can't call each other "hao xiong di" anymore...coz of the seventh month shhh. never mind, we have new names! (:

...我知道 你和我 就像是豆浆油条~

So ultimately, I'm 鳖豆浆 and Bek's 龟油条!! :D :D

o.O I don't sound sane, do I. -___-" *messes own hair with one hand, gives constipated look and sings 爸我回来了 --ghostly hair version* bleahhh. 你走开!!! *chokes*

Like a snow ball rolling in the snow,
My love grows with every step I take,
you know.

08082004: Jovine and Karin.


09082004: Ferleen and Karin. Big heads! ><

Happy 39th birthday, Singapore. Fireworks amaze me, even from the television screen. Rare rare rare outing with Ferleen today(: Subconscious walking haha. And 2 minutes decorating time-_-" And marche and talking and remembering foreign names=X And laughing at 1/5 mystery story and drama rehearsals=P Ahh the good old days.

我不再去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我

08082004: 15 today(: Time to make ic -_-" ..Friday was spent hypering in school at the national day party, so they call it haha. jac peixuan vivien angie xinling karin were singing our hearts out and dancing like don't know what. funnn. Then we went town and I sprained my ankle for the first time in my entire life. no kidding. Good experience I must say. (no sarcasm) At least I could walk. We didn't do much, just umm walked around? Hmm and they had to touch me by giving me the birthday present:*) Didn't know what to say...just thank you(: Loss for words huhh.

I remember myself having a whole long list of what I wanted for my birthday exactly this time last year. This year, I've surprised myself by only having 3 things on the list: Love, friendship and lame jokes. lol. It's funny how people change. I will spend this year learning to be a nice person as well. yayyy.

Would like to thank everyone for remembering my birthday...
-andrea for the cake(:
-xiao gu for the red packet(:
-jac,peixuan,vivien and meiqi for the converse top(:
-suet, ferleen for posting happy birthday in your entries(:
-xueling for tagging on my board twice(:
-ferleen, audrey for tagging on the board too(:
-peixuan for the birthday song outside taka(:
-ferleen, yuxing, meiqi and andrea for wishing me happy birthday on msn(:
-Daddy for the Jack's place dinner(:
-Mummy for the e-base top(:
-audrey for the sms and msn nick(: and thank you in advance for the piano scores:P
-jac, celine, vivien, meiqi, peixuan, christine, mabel, jiamin, ys, diana, tong chong, mum, a.tee, bekwuay, yijing for sending birthday wishes through sms(:
[added]: thanks siyou for being the last and just in time(:(:

Happy Birthday, Karin.
Ahh I shall die a happy girl now.

现实里有了我对你的眷恋
我愿意化作雕像等你出现
再见再也不见
心碎了飘荡在海边
你抬头就看见

It doesn't feel like August. It's supposed to be a special month since the past 14 years, but this year everything just isn't right. I'm heading towards this month with more :( than (: There's too much to worry about. For my mum and everything. For this family. For everyone's relationship. For the previous years, August was always exciting. What with my birthday, national day and cross country =X bleah. I don't know what to say for this year. We're not very rich. I don't need a birthday cake or an extravagant meal or whatever that's not totally necessary. I just want my mum to be happy and my dad to not come home too late every day and my sister to do well in her studies so as not to worry my parents and for the new maid to do her work well so as not to worry mum and for grandfather to be healthy so as not to worry my parents again and for me to get along with everyone else so that when everyone's happy, I'll be happy. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently it is.

It doesn't feel like August. It's supposed to be a special month since the past 14 years, but this year everything just isn't right. I'm heading towards this month with more :( than (: There's too much to worry about. For my mum and everything. For this family. For everyone's relationship. For the previous years, August was always exciting. What with my birthday, national day and cross country =X bleah. I don't know what to say for this year. We're not very rich. I don't need a birthday cake or an extravagant meal or whatever that's not totally necessary. I just want my mum to be happy and my dad to not come home too late every day and my sister to do well in her studies so as not to worry my parents and for the new maid to do her work well so as not to worry mum and for grandfather to be healthy so as not to worry my parents again and for me to get along with everyone else so that when everyone's happy, I'll be happy. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently it is.

She's gone. After living with us for almost 7 years. The only person who knows the lifestyle of each family member by heart. She was more of a friend to me. We didn't want her to leave. But life has to go on. We all have to move on. She is going back to get married; we should be happy for her. But she has worked for us for such a long time. Life is not complete without her running everything in the household. We are not used to the new maid. Although I'm rather independent already and am seldom at home anyway, I don't like the change at all. Wonder how long it will take for things to go back to normal again. It's like we have to start from scratch once more. She has only left for less than 24 hours and we miss her so much already. tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi.

:(

Don't like rainy nationals :( It all ended yesterday. One more year left. Already wishing I'll never ever have to leave. NY trackers rock.

Oh, yes. To me, in the world of physics, ignorance is bliss. :P

andcheeringandclappingandscreaminggogoalltheway(:

I've wasted 14 and a half hours yesterday sleeping non-stop. There's HCL and History Elective tests tomorrow. Seconds are ticking away. And here I am, happily listening to Jay Chou's albums one by one. That would be a total of 4 hours. What have I done this weekend? Nothing. We never have proper weekends. On friday, most of us stay back after school for CCA or remedial, as if we don't almost every single day of the week. Then we go home and attempt to do homework, but hey, it's the weekend and it's time to rest and use the computer and watch tv. So. On saturday, we drag ourselves out of bed and go to school at 8am. For Physics Practical Exam, or whatever it is. Ah, we finally get a chance to go out and have lunch with friends after that. And catch a movie or something. We reach home say, in the evening. And attempt to do homework again but there's just too high a pile. We give up and use the time to relax, listen to music and maybe read a book. The night is spent, usefully. The next morning, we wake up bright and early to go for the weekly piano lessons. 2 hours gone. We attempt to use the afternoon to do homework. And then, after barely finishing an a-maths assignment, it's time to visit the library. After we return, it's time to prepare to go off to grandma's house for dinner. We come back home at night. It's time to study for 2 tests at one go and at the same time, complete an english narrative essay.

Where did the weekend go? ...

岲孼掜丗奜晽鈲� 撪怱杬曻:D

岲孼掜rocks (: yayyy. Lame things! *gets excited* rahhh. ><

hei se you mo. shi jie mo ri. an jing. ni ting de dao.
ban shou ren. long quan. nuo fu. ti tian.
:P

Happy Birthday, Jovine. Thanks for being the one person I hate to love, sometimes.

It's a terrible feeling, falling ill. Especially when you have a sore throat, serious flu, and there's a lot of chocolate in the fridge. :(

It's a terrible feeling, losing things. One minute it's there and it's yours, the next moment it just doesn't seem to exist anymore. Gone. Disappeared from the surface of this earth. And everything you wanted was just to get it back.

It's a terrible feeling, knowing you could have done much better. Disappointment. Regretting all that you've not done, "if only" you'd done more. I feel like I've wasted two years in long distance. Like the whole world says, I'm so not a middle distance runner. :( All is not lost.


`_____accidentally in love<<

Mcflirt.

Line of the Day: "5-6-7-8! SO CUTE! Like, totally."

I believe I can flirt
I believe I can flirt the guys
I do it at KAP every night and day
Even in my dreams I flirt away

I believe I am chio
I bat my eyelashes and blow their ears
I believe I can flirt
I believe I can flirt
I believe I can flirt

Mcflirt rocks. Exclusively at KAP. Go try it. I'm flirting it.

漏Jac;Peixuan;Angie;Meiqi;Karin(:

Mcflirt is just so funkae. Mcflirt made my day!! =D

Laughter trains abs(:

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
...and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
...and the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
...and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do

...and the reason is you

Youth day celebration rocked(: Why do I simply have to do at least one embarrassing thing each day? T.T Hmph. Fun fair was funnn. 310 stall was flooded with people and we only had what, 1 set of brushes? =X Had a dark blue 'tattoo' done on the arm by Jackiap=D Wanted to do one at the body part I wanted but too many customers too little time=( disappointing. But Jac got her -don't know say how many zillion times- shoulder one lol. I was hungry, then after eating a brownie and chocolate ice cream, I was full=X And I was hungry again. Didn't eat all the way until 8pm. rahhhh. And we spent hours persuading Peitient to hit Mr Tang:DDD (He must have been so disappointed that she didn't) Meanwhile embarrassing things happened, like Jac having to magnetise me back coz my legs failed to obey me-_-" bleahhh. And all the flowers died on me=( First it was 'Jac's love' :P then it was 'the one' and we had to trim it o.O I was so po2 ma1; it was so unlike me! arghhh *covers face* ahhh. And then the rest of the class had to go for their oral exam before the fun fair ended. How anti-climax can it get-_-" We raised more than expected I guess. whee.
And _____________________________________(:

"I never forget you forget me...
Even my name also say wrongly~~"
*dieD laughing*

CL oral no more.
It was horrid and I said embarrassing things. The female examiner was incredibly dao and the newspaper article conversation was so -urgh-. I didn't want to ask the examiner to repeat though I didn't exactly listen carefully. While reading the passage, at a part both examiners started picking up their pens and scribbling on their papers at the exactly same time. Imagine the horror. =X I got prompted 4 times. I was erm-ing all the way. It took about 10 minutes. Waited in the media viewing room for about 2 hours +++. Everybody needed to go to the toilet. -_-" Our group was slow. When I was silently reading the passage, Diana was still inside. Had to wait for a super long time staring at Celine and the examiners. When I finished, Kylie was already in the other room. I didn't know where to look. Basically stared at the purple curtain- the space in between both examiners. The atmosphere was so uncomfortable o.O

Yay it's over. Can enjoy youth day celebration in peace tomorrow. Good luck to all.

Bruises on arm=X painn.
Volleyball rocks! (: funn.

I'm trying to be a better person, really.
Just give me a chance.