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*you're my sugar rush: 200304 @ 2234

March Holidays Homework List
1. A maths assignment [RP3]
2. A maths revision on logarithms
3. IPW research
4. History SBQ Assignment
5. English 1100 words you need to know [64]
6. study CL 3A
7. Physics toy assignment
8. Chemistry Worksheets [2]
9. Lit Dramatisation Assignment
10. CME song lyrics [current situation: not planning to do in a while-.-]
11. Social Studies Tutorial
12. *training

...big fat slacker who has practically done nothing. there's so little homework for this holiday. apparently everybody else seem to have a longer homework list. maybe i shall return to school in term 2 with the horror of long-ago forgotten pieces of homework, but right now there's only one pathetic day left to the holidays and i don't seem to have cleared the pathetic list yet. what's wrong with me. CME lyrics definite gonecase, due before end of term one, not planning to do as yet- not the priority at the moment. Lit Dramatisation? extremely confused, haven't grouped etc. Physics toy assignment: piece of crap, 99.9% possibility of handing in a piece of crap too. 1100 words you need to know: *tears hair apart* supposed to have done 64 exercises by now, guess what? an untouched chunk of paper called a new book lies at the bottom of goodness knows where. shall find it when i finally decide to do it. A maths assignment: the chapter is done already and i'm still 90% clueless as to what is going on. great. 4 questions out of 13 unsolved. shan't even dream of doing logarithms revision, being me, will probably find some lame excuse to convince myself that there will be time to catch up, when it's a steel fixed NO TIME and i know it.

days left to sleep late: zero. rise and shine at 5.30am tomorrow. not grumbling. keeping fingers crossed for a fully striked list. face it: it's the end of one quarter of the year already. one year passes like the speed of formula one, not the dreaded 2.4km run anymore. wake up and get a grip will you.

`dreaming of you- and you're clueless, aren't you.

+ late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i wish upon a star
that somewhere you are
thinking of me too*

...post OBS depression. shall get over it soon. i think. =( still can't even hold my pen properly, can't remember a single thing about logarithms or Lenin=X busy entertaining myself these 2 days peeling skin. yuckkkk. peeling skin, especially from your scalp, isn't exactly pleasant. reminds me of dandruff, except that they're in bigger flakes *pukes intensely* o.O but never mind. officially healed today(: uhhh hopefully so. anyway haven't touched homework! training tomorrow morning with andrea, noon doing project work with vivien, yingxu, tongchong. haven't started on it yet. slack schedule still can't get anything done. tsk tsk=X

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking
It's early morn'
The taxi's waiting
He's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

+ leaving on a jet plane*

back from OBS already. warning: long entry. everyone's blogging in this manner ya. here goes:

Day 1: it started raining at punggol jetty and 310 was the last batch to get onto the ferry i think. looking like ducklings under our ponchos we finally arrived at camp #2. discovered that all those who assembled at the LT in the morning were all the mobile people..and i was in cook!! first reaction to it was what kind of watch name is that, but later found it pretty cool because it's a really convenient name with one syllable only mah. :P everyone was sorted out in their respective watches with their instructors and we had to sort out all the food and store stuff etc and had lunch. realised they give us relatively good food lah haha. but our watch was quite slow-motioned throughout the five days heh. instructor: LJ lolll. at first everyone was like why is he so gayish and mood swingish coz the first two days he always looked sian and pms-y. blahh. and people from other watches would go like "who's LJ? oh, the one with the girly hairband and blue hairclip ah." -___-|| anyway later in the day we learned belaying. then junko was beside us and there was this incident over the breast check or whatever thing. ahahaha. supposed to be squeeze check lol. man, think they died laughing there. and LJ was all the while pms-ing during the rock climbing i guess. bleah. didn't rock climb though did belaying, anchoring and assisting. learned tent building in the evening and spent quite a long time pitching up three tents before dinner. then it started pouring like crazy and it ended up that our efforts came to a waste coz we were told to sleep in the multi purpose hall due to the rain. ahhhhh. we cooked rice and it turned out okay...it was actually generally cooked and not exactly burnt. had our first night circle and did the "template designs" for our watch journal. after that, finally bed time, was so cold sleeping at night coz had no sleeping bag and it was raining continuously the whole night. freeeeezing. brrr.

Day 2: early morning had breakfast and unpitched the tents. spent a long time doing that again. LJ always let us decide on the time we wanted to wake up, do things etc. we were always behind time and there seemed to be so much to do at the store. still can't figure out why. morning activity was rock climbing. i did the rockish one with a slope, and kept having to yell at the belayer to pull the rope tighter. heh no sense of security ah. it was fun and everyone had a try on either wall. after lunch we did our packing of the gigantic backpacks...stuffed everything into it, what with the helmets, harnesses, pots, mess tins, jerry cans, tents, ponchos, cans of food. again, spent a zillion years packing before started out with our kayaking practise activity. partnered with ying dan, did capsizing drill and had a demostration of t-rescue but no time for jetty jump. hai was disappointed though i knew i didn't want to jump. wanted to test my limits coz if given the choice i wouldn't, but if we had to, i would still do it. blahh. anyway, LJ demonstrated the jetty jump for us lol. loaded our oh-so-light backpacks onto the boats and started kayaking 800m to the next campsite. cook, cousteau, hillary and da gama were together for the sea expedition. meanwhile the instructors daniel and LJ kept saying the NY curse caused the rain and the unpredictable weather. like we could help it right. along the 800m, had to do capsizing and rescuing as a form of practise. didn't capsize, had to rescue instead, was really tough but managed to rescue amelia and fan di haha. we arrived at the campsite rather late and spend a long time (again) carrying kayaks upshore and forming a human chain to unload backpacks. think i helped carry 1/2 the kayaks; was super tired. pitched tents and cooked dinner in the dark, LJ had to go for his wedding dinner: aiyah sharkfin-crazy guy. anyway we managed well without him around...cook rules. oh yeah, we mass pee-d in the grass/ sand/ mud/ whatever and some mass polluted the sea lolll. aiwen's the peeing queen! ahahaha. had a good night's sleep under the tents. 5-5-4 in 3 tents, and just happened to be in the tent with 4 people: kylie, suan woo, weiting and me.

Day 3: woke up early, though rather stiff, didn't even know that it rained at night coz we were so dry and the tent was still surviving. yeahhh. breakfast and hot milo tasted heavenly~we set off rather late coz had to wait for all the watches to get ready. loading of backpacks and carrying of kayaks down to sea took such a long time too. but finally, we set off for our sea expedition at 8.30+ and kayaked kayaked kayaked. the sun was finally out, we had rather frequent breaks in between- water, food and pollution breaks. lol. instructors LJ, Daniel, Carol and Kenneth were in the speedboat. we had to stop often for the kayaks at the back to catch up and eventually didn't make the tide. had to go against the tide the whole journey. the wind was so strong, waves were so choppy, had a really hard time kayaking after the turn coz the weather suddenly turned bad. was so cold , teeth chattered all the way, shivered like anything, arms ached like crazy but had to continue. i was paddling so damn hard in front and kept having to shout at ying dan to change direction. rather freaked out, ying dan kept having to tell me to calm down etc. but really, she kept doing stupid things like emptying her shoe of sea water etc causing us to nearly capsize at least 10 times. was freaking pissed one time and she even asked whether i hate her. ahh. hello i know she is a strong swimmer but i am a non swimmer so naturally i wouldn't like to get into the water, or even capsize unnecessarily right. never mind. all was well after that. the distance between the navigator and the sweeper was really very very far apart so we had to wait and some eventually switched partners. after nearly 10 hours of kayaking, we finally reached the destination at around 6.30pm. anyway i pee-d twice in the sea lol what a special experience floating there with the PFD. many people mass polluted the sea at the same time haha. ahhhh was really cold and exhausted. again, spent a long time carrying the kayaks up to shore. and for the first time ever in OBS history, we didn't have to trek to our next campsite with our heavy backpacks. the instructors did us a very kind favour by sending our bags there in the speedboats. we had to trek 3km to camp #1, residential area. lent kylie an arm on the way coz of her knee injury. and oh man, the resi people were practically living in luxury. for one, the toilets there rock~haha. we were all very tired and didn't cook much coz LJ cooked luncheon meat for us using his gas starter so we needn't use solid fuel, which take a very long time to cook, and took rice from the resi place so we just heated some campbell soup and cooked some noodles for dinner. many people were badly sunburnt, i wore long sleeved and track pants for kayaking so didn't get much sunburn except for face and head. went for a shower at the toilet near the pool at midnight. brrrr freezing cold but felt much better. we didn't pitch tents coz LJ gave us this cage-like store room for us 14 people to squeeze in to sleep. people kept commenting how it felt like sleeping in jail lol. we were all exhausted, arms aching, too tired to do anything else but sleep. i thought the sea expedition was really a new experience, was paddling nonstop, everyone was tired, but there was just this determination to keep going, and felt really accomplished in the end. kayaking rocks except for the sunburns=X

Day 4: cook's birthday!!! know why? coz cook's initials are CK and 11th of march represents C as 3rd letter of the alphabet, K as 11th letter of alphabet. ingenious ahahaha. think weiting or someone else thought of it. happy birthday cook lol. oh yes, we woke up late! 7.30am everyone suddenly leapt out of bed (groundsheet) and panicked for a moment. we were something like one and a half hours behind schedule then. i was i/c for the day with aiwen. didn't do much though coz there really wasn't much to be in charge of that day anyway, except for room key and medic bag, coz no one knew who was medic of the day...bleahh. anyway turned out had a good morning coz we were very on time for activities. did peak descent with cousteau. it was actually flying fox lah, just that it is the longest one in south east asia or something. and 30m high. woohoo the climb up the tower was very tiring but very worth it once you're up there. looked outwards at the scenery. the first step wasn't as bad as i thought coz the line wasn't slopish. was the 11th person who did it and later took over as lollipop girl from huijin. was very blur and carol kept having to tell me to change colour. bleahh so paiseh. anyway it was really fun and we finished the activity in less than 1 and a half hours, so had like 2 hours of lunch break before the afternoon activity. hai unpredictable weather, it started pouring like crazy againnnn. couldn't do abseiling already...so disappointed. hate the rain! later in the afternoon didn't know what happen but my scalp started hurting like crazy...actually my head was quite badly sunburnt but wasn't aware of it the day before. hurt like hell. close to tears and went down to the medical centre with weiting and aiwen, though theirs were not as serious. cried when LJ helped apply aloe vera gel on my stinky head and sea weedish hair. bleahhh. was painful but mainly touched haha =*( so gentle i couldn't stand it. bleahhh. my eyes were damn bloodshot since after sea expedition on wednesday already. it was too wet to go abseiling so we ended up playing stupid concentration games indoors. one hour for the raft escape game. it was very interesting~if we had more time definitely could have completed it and reach the destination. helped da gama a bit on the way. their front girl was blindfolded and they were stuck. oh, and something dumb happened along the way. one of the stuffed toys was beheaded by accident. and not only was the poor dwarf's head detached from its body, its hat was detached from its head too. lmao. ahaha.then it was time for us to trek back to mobile area, camp #2. carried the oh-so-heavy backpacks, two jerry cans in one hand and medic bag in the other. couldn't manage, thanks to kylie who helped me carry one of my jerry cans. the upslope was crazy but actually quite enjoyable to me. bleahhh. and it was raining...we trekked at top speed, 1km+ in about half an hour or less. it was half our estimated time, we were somehow really on task that day...so happy. then cook went crazy. it started with forgot who, probably weiting lah. mad girl! oh and people who ate milo and ovaltine powder went crazy too. elaina and kaixuan sang songs...they have nice voices(: leaving on a jet plane is a super nice song ahhh love it to bits. on the way to the cooking place, we were all laughing like crazy, weiting started her album *dies laughing* it goes like this: track 1: lalalalalalaaaaaa. track 2: leleleleleleeeeee. track 3: lulululululululuuuuuuuuu. and there was one track dedicated to kylie's knee wound. lmao. weiting was singing mamemoooo repeatedly to kylie's injury so that it would heal faster. lollll. the instructors must have thought we were mad. we were really HIGH then. and everyone was in a good mood during dinner. i was addicted to opening can food and joanna called me the opening can expert! opening cans with jack knife rocks!! it started with me opening a can on the first night, taking over from kylie. then the next other nights i opened most of the cans too...really addicted to it, a skill i picked up myself lol. didn't think i could actually open cans but yeah i'm loving it <3 after dinner i happened to touch my hair with my arm and to my utmost horror, found lots of pus on my arms okay. nearly fainted with disgust. irk. but my scalp didn't hurt that much coz the aloe vera gel was taking effect, cooling the sunburns. then LJ saw me touching and touching my hair and he came over and touched it too. he went "eeeee" and wiped the pus *ewww* on my shirt. uhhhhhh. *big sweatdrop* ahahaha. was really very disgusted with myself but no one called him to touch right. then when cook washed up- haha scrubbing pots and mess tins frantically with sand- we 'played' this chinese name guessing thing as we washed the utensils. felt really peaceful and suddenly loved my watchmates a lot at that moment(: at night we made mua chee that LJ said was tang yuan for supper. he brought the powder thing for us...it was really very nice! yummy yum yum. then LJ started giving us "people with hair disease" as he calls it free hair service treatment again. ahh fine i was touched again. felt much better though, the aloe vera gel is quite effective. da gama were talking to daniel and the rest were asleep. oh, we didn't pitch tents AGAIN for goodness knows what reason. therefore cook only slept under tents one night out of four. =( i like sleeping in tents. boo. we practically made LJ eat the mua chee or tang yuan haha. he did lah and poor xiao jun's spoon got licked like don't know what. must be a bad habit lol. oh yes, we caught suan woo gazing at LJ while he was eating *lmao!! then everyone settled down but some of us couldn't sleep, and we found ourselves walking to the jetty with LJ and daniel who were sleeping there. some people said they were there to prevent a crime from happening. claimed to be afraid that something would happen to daniel with LJ around so we had to protect daniel lol. and they said we were invading their privacy. daniel is afraid of lizards is it? coz the girl beside me tricked him that a lizard crawled into his sleeping mat and his expression was damn funny. lol. it's nice at the jetty at 2am in the morning. memorable. we finally made it back to the "cooking place" to sleep. there was this girl near us who was snoring and weiting went crazy again. oh yeah and she started recording her album with me and kylie to her left and right before we slept. lullaby hor:P almost everyone in the watch agreed that Day 4 was the best day ever~

Day 5: woke up at 7+, had lots of cleaning up to do. had to clear up the store, wash all the tents, jerry cans, bags, ponchos. we were damn slow. washed only one tent in one and a half hours. the rest finished washing ponchos, bags and jerry cans but we still had two tents left and there wasn't much time left. LJ was pissed. i felt damn useless and guilty then. according to him, our pots "cannot make it lah" aka his favourite phrase. he said he would clean the rest himself. ahhhh the guilt. we lost one single tent peg, so stupid!! and we actually lost our blue tarp okay. like how on earth could such a big thing get lost i totally have no idea. haii. he chased us off to buy souvenirs. bought a dark blue shirt, red bottle and silver collar pin. was feeling guilty like siao. also, couldn't speak properly coz had sore throat and slight flu, and my scalp hurt again coz was exposed to the sun while washing the tents. haii. finally we had to leave soon, filled in our nyaa booklets unsigned, so LJ had to take them back and send us someday. filled in evaluation form. some wrote in the comments that he was always pissed with us. he told us he wasn't pissed, just that we were really very slow- which was true lah. my comment was a mere: LJ is great. lol. oh yes, before that we opened our high-low package. it was supposed to be a package of surprise that meant to be opened whenever the group wanted to, be it in a high or low mood. throughout the days people were guessing what it was. the guesses ranged from sweets to marbles. lol like give us marbles for what? o.O anyway it was m&ms for everyone(: presented the certs to each other. like the first person would present to the second person and so on. huijin presented me mine and i presented xinying hers. lotsa hugs around. then LJ played us the song High sang by Lighthouse Family. we teared like crazy, group hug. was really very very sad and emotional. At the end of the day, Remember the way, We stayed so close to the end, We'll remember it was me and you. =*( then he read us his "final words". didn't catch it properly and can't remember exactly coz couldn't hear properly, sniffing away, and eyes were damn blurry. moreover, he has minute handwriting, which i find rather amusing. really, the tiniest handwriting i've ever seen in my entire life. that's another thing i'll remember about him really. other than his "cannot make it", "worse case scenario", "foodtt", "drink up", hairband, silver blue hairclip and cool necklace. and yes, i think LJ rocks but i don't exactly love him like suan woo! ahahahah. most people are crazy over daniel lol. oh yeah, found out that daniel's so called boxers aren't boxers actually lah. he showed us on the kingfisher, it looked like a scarf, just a piece of cloth. lol funny guy. all the mobile watches cheered for the instructors, they're really all very very nice. we took one last photo with LJ as cook, then gave him one big group hug that sent him flying into some trash cans. lolllll. everyone was like on attack mode. shouted "thank you LJ" then off to the jetty on the way home. cook was separated into two kingfishers but we were reunited on Singapore, took some more photos, had the police check our bags and up the bus we went. people were exchanging numbers and so on. ahhh finally reached school. on the way was missing OBS like crazy already. didn't want to leave! was telling kylie just give me a kayak and i'll kayak all the way back to pulau ubin. T.T

ahh the feeling's still there. i miss the instructors, the feeling of being in watches and everything. aih. listening to High now, the sadness is back again. Cook rocks, LJ rocks, mobile rocks, OBS rocks. it's really a once in a life time experience, no doubt, learned to treasure light having to hike in the dark especially. learnt how to open cans, to wear harness in no time, to cook, pitch tents, treasure house toilets. 5 days were way too short. missing all the rations and even the jerry cans. :( most of all, learnt not to underestimate oneself. isntructors said, you can't change the situation, you can only change your mindset and reaction to it. that's really true. yeah and like what all the instructors said, our life journey did not start and end from OBS, it only really started the moment we stepped on Singapore shore. outward bound is life back in civilisation~ the first few days, many people were grumbling and saying, "I don't understand why the seniors said OBS rocks so much." but then, realised it was the last 2 days that made us forget all about the first few days of 'suffering'. it was actually not suffering, just a new experience that we were unused to, depending on the way you see it. yeah the last 2 days were damn fun, felt very sad on the last night, during dinner kept thinking this is our last night together already etc. the days passed by too fast. five days were really not enough! this week was just enough time for us to get to know each other better, and just when we felt that we loved it each other and couldn't bear to part, it was time for us to leave=( but it was really memorable, don't think i'll forget everything so soon, learned so many out of textbook stuff, grew to look at many things from a more positive point of view. and yes, everyone grew arm muscles from kayaking, and suddenly our bags seem especially light compared to the oh-so-heavy backpacks that actually sent people bending backwards lol. ready to take on any new challenge, so it seems. OBS rocks~

LJ. kaixuan. elaina. kylie. joanna. ai wen. suan woo. xiao jun. zhao yan. chen hong. hui jin. ying dan. xin ying. weiting. karin. *i miss cook.

mr paul tan i hate you. fancy telling us to hand in an expository essay for term 1 grading by tomorrow morning. when term one has already ended. you simply don't make sense. if you so desperately need to grade us, then why didn't you assign the assignment to us sooner? i have absolutely no mood, energy and motivation, at this moment, to do an expository essay on "young people are slaves to fashion" at all. or the few other topics on censorship and blah. rahhhhhhhh. fine it won't be quality work but who cares? US. of course we do. it affects us, not you.

*off to OBS in less than 10 hours! :D

sweaty palms =X

...finally last day of term one! ahhh. what a relief. stupid chemistry test tomorrow is spoiling everything though. it's scary to think that 1/4 of the school year has gone..and gonna have to do the cme song lyrics tomorrow after chem test..sigh. this week just flashed past at the speed of mou mou ren who got A for shot putt=P phew. pe test was okay...hopefully the moderation would push the grades up yeah. i'm kinda addicted to long jump ahaha. so funnnn. especially the takeoff and exciting hanging in the air feeling. i'm loving it(: haha bleah.

in quite a good mood today yay. i sound damn childish when i'm in good moods. and oh man jac just realised today that i'm a person with depth. T.T i love cheem cheem stuff yeah. and cai mama rocks! can't believe i'm saying this. but without her jac peixuan and i wouldn't be entertained during certain tsk tsk lessons. [tom and jerry bulldog's son!!! *dies laughing*] i go crazy and my stomach always feels like bursting whenever peixuan or jac make me laugh in class. ahhhh. peixuan is amusing!! [don't blame me for laughing at you if you're reading hor. you forever bullying me!! *makes a face*] by the way what's the deodorant for?! half the world thinks it stinks and the other half thinks it smells heavenly wahahaha. -.-"

was especially in a good mood during elect. history today coz...got back our test 2 source-based paper. was really really happy when i saw the humongous 10/12 on my script. improved by 7 marks okay...last test got 3/12 haha(: so people out there who haven't been doing very well for other subjects or whatsoever, don't be disheartened okay? jiayou!(: encouraging others when my a maths is way down the drain. ahhh. logarithms. it's actually one of the most interesting topics to me lah. but our dearest maths teacher wanted to rush the entire chapter this week and she actually managed to. mad woman. it resulted in me not understanding a single concept in the chapter. only knew that lg is log base 10 yesterday and we were already nearing the end of the chapter. what crappp. every single question on the assignmentS made me tear my hair out, and had to consult vivien every two seconds or something. ahhh. >.<

yeah OBS! less than 3 days away...haven't packed anything, preparing to get all the stuff tomorrow, probably not training again. not training for one whole week already. plus next week's OBS, gonna survive two weeks of not training- shall see how i die during the march holidays. wednesday's cross country nationals..all the runners did well:) yesterday they were giving out the top 20 individual trophies to the two c division girls. then these two people sitting beside me were saying, why no b division? they no talent mah, didn't get anything. was so damn pissed could have strangled them on the spot. they should go try out the turf city route themselves someday. hello they did not witness the effort put in by all the runners so why don't they just shut up. stupid ignorant people.

啦啦啦啦~~~
冷漠背后躲着温柔
我还记得现在此候
看你低着头 我站在船头
啦啦啦啦~~~
黑色的风吹袭着我
暴风欲来那片天空
幸福在招手

it's weird strange how teachers can just call you anytime they like...chem teacher just made an irrelevant call to my house about 10 seconds ago. uhhh. and by the way this is to remind myself to refrain from using words like weird. haha coz it's slang-___-" never mind. and today discovered that mdm toh has all our photos in her laptop=X like mine is that i-hate-the-photographer-coz-he-pronounced-my-name-wrongly bushuang face. =( bet she had a bad impression of me long ago. and we're supposed to use that photo for don't know what purposes. taking another one is a waste of money since i still have the ezlink ones from last year. bleahhh.

...just wrote a 4 and one-third page sui bi to vent my frustrations. hopefully caimama doesn't mind. i must be mad. don't even write such long zuowens. writing suibi is nice though. almost no restrictions.

wandering around in school without my beloved specs today. ahhh. the agony. though i can see clearly without specs it's bad for my eyesight. stupid left eye long sighted right eye short sighted girl. why must there be something different about me that is so troublesome. been staring at my hurdle-scar just now. it's like a forever-thing already. can't seem to get rid of that pale patch. good thing it isn't that obvious now but it still...exists. whatever. the scar under my chin is eternal too. :(

fruity bytes! X) ...

"hey how's nanyang?"
"okay."
"wah you sec three already?"
"yes."
"eh your school got the integrated programme right you in it?"
"no."
*mocking tone* "why leh? i thought you damn smart one."
*shrug* "i'm not interested in hcjc."
"hc so good you don't want to go? weird leh. your dad come from there one you know?"
*shrug* SO?!
"wah then you so poor thing need to take o levels huh."

for heaven's sake, just shut the f**k up.

There's gotta be more to life
There's gotta be more...
than wanting more.*

why am i online >.< beats me. the computer was just on and here i am wasting time. finished reading joy luck club. it's a...weird book, in an enjoyable, half amused, half scary kind of way. o.O nonsense debates rock. 1. we should eat bananas on tuesdays. 2. Barney (or some equally irritating cartoon character) must die. lolllll. totally rocks. so super amusing haha(: peixuan and jac are equally amusing too. *laughs at peixuan in a crazy stiffling way* :D

it's tiring to go to school early in the morning and needing sleep badly. there's nothing i wanna do more than sleep for 100 hours straight. try me, that might come true some day. if there's time. whatever. ( ahahaha reminds me of vivien's "what-eVER" *self amusement*)

i'm sick of people asking me why i always look so "sad". there are sometimes when i get real pissed inside, since i seldom get pissed on the outside already, and i conjure snappy conversations in my head, what i would like the person to hear- and then-silence, like a smack on the face. i never make it happen in reality. uhhuh. hate answering questions sometimes. it was fun entertaining myself just now when someone asked me about strength training. conversing without voice is awkwardly cool. it might just slightly intimidate people. which is exactly what i need. _{isolationistic}?

why are there so many things i would like to do but they are just out of reach? i like to study. i like school. there's nothing wrong with it. learning new things and registering new knowledge is a positive part of life. but rather, it's "i want to sleeeppp" most of the time. wu neng wei li. =X

[8.40pm]: dui bu qi* jay chou.

xiang xiao lai wei zhuang diao xia de yan lei
dian dian tou cheng ren zi ji hui pa hei
wo zhi qiu neng jie yi dian de shi jian lai pei
ni que lian tong qing dou bu gei
xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
wo wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei

25% for my history source based test. it's not like the world has ended. i'm not disappointed at all, just accepting what i've been given. the word "failure" should not be determined by academic results. who on earth applied that word in this context. so what if you fail to pass for a test. does it reflect on who you are? does it really affect you so much that your world's crumbling down just because of that? if it does, you're probably just too shallow to allow yourself to be judged by others because you so desperately want attention; to fit in. indeed, why let yourself think you have failed when you haven't been presented with your results? why sigh before you have even tried? why say "i can't do this" when you haven't taken the first step towards being "unable to do it?" why do people bring themselves down so that so that they would be able to look good no matter what happens in the end? it doesn't show anything. no point at all.
everyone likes to deceive themselves once in a while.

...

[uh huh]*i'm so happy, i could cry. i feel so comfortable with my life now that i don't need anything else. really. learn to stand from different points of view; stop being so square. stop assuming. stop acting like you understand everything else when you're really muddled up. there's always time for you to sit down and think of yourself for yourself. live your own life. put yourself in your own shoes and walk ten miles from where you're standing. it's cliche, but it's always up to you.*[/uh huh]

it's the haven't-blogged-for-a-very-long-time and getting-used-to-it-which results-in-not-blogging- period again. bleahh. valentine's day on saturday. had quite a good time..went out and came back again coz initially intended to go for training but ended up decided not to and went out again. -.- it's nice at suntec city. the fountain reminded me a whole lot about nationals. and feeling guilty about always not attending saturday trainings. sigh. but it was really peaceful and i love the night haha. i didn't make any unnecessary confessions! -__-"

so tireddd. i'm always especially worried that there's lotsa homework on training days coz i simply have to sleep after bathing. no dinner, nothing. probably just rush through maths and end up with lotsa doubts to copy from people the next day and blah. but in school, the momentum is so fast, every lesson rushes past and there is forever at least one burden a day, bugging me till the day ends or until it's finally settled. there simply isn't time for me to register the fact that i'm much deprived of sleep. and then during trainings i'm always so damn tired after warm up. could just fall asleep right there after a set of drills or something. bahh. we're suddenly running longer distances in macritchie already. or does it only concern me. anyway the tiredness i always feel is usually more of the yawning-all-the-time kind. overwhelming weariness and my body's always tensed up. ahh. it's kind of weird to have enough breath to yawn during training isn't it. *shrug*

...received much more valentine's presents than given. feeling a bit guilty, but i guess i'm just not a thoughtful enough person. and there simply wasn't time for me to move my ass to shopping centres. busy studying, yeah right. been eating way too much chocolate! *groan* there's still half of the supply i received left. chocolate to accompany me reading grass is singing lol. which reminds me, till this very day, in this society, people do still conform to society's expectations to be accepted. but usually those who are outstanding shine ultimately. i believe everyone's road of life is different. not everybody has to follow the common path. what's wrong with living your own life and not living everybody elses'? ...uhhh kinda drifted apart. never mind. this is late, but a sincere thank you to everyone who wished happy valentine's and for the presents(: it's really nice to feel loved.


you're my sugar rush*

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that you're lonely too
Firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

went town today. haha. it's nice to go out one to one...got lotsa stuff to talk about and all. wanted to buy a few valentine's gifts but wasn't very successful heh. best part was
-> neoprints <- lol. oh, and today was supposed to have a class dinner thing at a.tee's house right...but it was cancelled. why so last minute. sigh.

i think i'm falling ill. a bit feverish and having sore throat now. greatttt. loads of homework this weekend and haven't done any yet. ahh. long day tomorrow. probably waking up at 6 plus for training with andrea, that's if i feel okay and happen to be able to wake up *sighhh* after that's piano lesson, followed by making of new specs and then bahhh. two tests next week...fortunately we don't have to study too hard for them. history elective's source based question. and lit's a factual "quiz" quoted by the lit teacher. good. and i'm turning into a total nerd yay! nerdified.

oh man, everyone hasn't forgotten about the she bangs guy yet. there's an official website on him. i actually went to download his version of the song and have been re-listening to it for about half an hour-.- hey, the more you listen, the more it isn't that bad lah. poor guy o.O

well hey, so much I need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away

aihhh. it's version goodness knows what of the great depression among...us. us as in people who are depressed coz of life and people who miss each other and people who get sad coz everyone is sad. :((((

i thought it was about time for everyone to move on already. what with 1/12 of the year gone, i'm getting suited to my class and everything, and then again i realise i'm incomplete without...everyone. i was still telling andrea today that i cannot imagine myself back in sec 2 again since...life is so forcefully stable already. but then i realise i still do miss everyone a lot. everyone as in 5*everyone. :( i miss our ex form teacher. i miss our ex maths and lit teacher. i miss my ex classmates. everything is -ex-, in the past already, history, the end. i know i should not blog about this coz everyone will start getting sad again.

i reach school and go straight to my classroom each day. it means to me, the start of a new school day and then all the lessons come in, etc. and then recess is the period of time i dread a lot. yeah i'm mad. coz it's when i realise i got no new classmates whom i know so well to recess with, which means i will eat with fivers, which reminds me of everything. so i end up not recessing most of the time. it's a forcing-myself-to-get-into-a-numb-mood tactic. i want to look for people i miss, but then i'll end up convincing myself it would be better to stay away coz i'll feel as if i don't belong anyway. bleah. why does everyone look happy to me all the time? i must be blind. and i feel that IP separated us a lot. i never feel as if i can talk to you people anymore. just can't bear to. and sometimes i think, hey it's fine coz you'll have each other, and i'll have myself.

whatever. that was a whole load of crap. today was a terrible day. i was so sure i would get ill today considering the fact that my whole family is still unwell and i didn't sleep well at all last night. there are some things i do that scare me a lot. =X so tired. especially after recess, cai mama was rambling before the HCL test which was not-very-okay-kind-of-okay, and i nearly died of exasperation and sleepiness. bleahh. i hate my seat now. coz there are tons of mosquitoes around and they keep attacking me! i absolutely detest mosquitoes. stupid blood sucking creatures. spent half the time in class scratching and slapping and raging. ahhh. shall bring mosquito repellent to school. training was bad. was so mentally exhausted that could have dropped dead/asleep every single second. it doesn't help that we trained in the drizzle. *feels a cold coming* i shall not get ill so easily.

can't open my eyes properly for another minute i think. time for bed. early bedtime for once in a zillion years. >.<

why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
how could i carry on
the day you went away.

whole family's ill. first was dad who's about to be okay now, then mum, then maid, then sis and i can even hear my grandfather coughing now. 5/6 of the family down, 1/6 to go- which means i'm most probably next. it's not pleasant at all to be living in a house full of people who are unwell. every 10 seconds someone's coughing. big sigh.

why did one month pass so fast. it's february already, which means 1/12 of the year is already gone. freaky. was on the phone with christine just now. indeed sec 3 is a huge step from sec 2. we shall soon turn into studying statues *shudders* haven't done much homework yet! one day left. been watching australia opens 2004- tennis. and finished reading this crazy book that i've been reading this week. it's so vulgar i can shrivel up and die=X there's the eff word in every single dialogue. hello what kind of book is that can't believe i actually managed to finish reading it. ..whatever.

ahaha dict jokes! :D i miss them lollll. how very original of us last year. bleahh off to study for HCL test and to officially become a potential study-statue.

ferleen i miss you too. thanks for making me feel a little bit appreciated. coz i simply feel like i've no real friends anymore. true, i like being alone, but now it's more like i'm so used to being alone already. and i get extremely overwhelmed in huge crowds, like the canteen. >.< not to mention, i'm the only extra person in my class who's taking talking art as english elective. haha there are only 9 people in the class. and i've already made a fool out of myself during the lesson today. what familiarity breeds contempt..must have lost my mind. i think the lessons rock though, very interesting haha. no regrets. work experience for end of year program as first choice. neutral about it i guess.

yesterday was the toughest training so far this year. for the first time in my entire life, didn't slack at all. even for cool down. never ever jogged 2 rounds around the perimeter as cool down before ah. completing the training program is a nice feeling. aching like crazy now. bahhh.

i have officially shrunk in height. by a sickening 1cm. therefore 3 more cm to reach the final aim. i am doubting my chances now. T.T never mind. cai mama says yao nu li! nu li jiu hui you xi wang! lollll. oh man, mdm toh's DIAAANNNN(then). lol. [crap] have been saying "don't care" a lot these days. who knows whether it's true or not. probably deceiving the whole world. [/crap]

American Idol 3! ahahaha. she bangs! she bangs! lollll. our maths teacher is scary. had maths test yesterday and she gave us back our papers today. didn't do as badly as i thought. can't be so sure about physics though. how to pass when i spend half the lesson laughing at the DIAAANNNs. >.<

some people like the feeling of having plenty of friends around them, though probably only few of them are for real. i don't even know how i feel when i see the giggling cliques around. looking at the world from outside the window allows you to see the things you've never noticed before.

freezing these few days. seems as though it has rained nonstop for days already. =X was pouring after chinese remedial [ahhh]. it was total crap. was supposed to have CL test and it ended up to be like a half-worksheet. to think i stayed up on CNY day 2 until about 2am to study. bleahhh.

was feeling rather accomplished till yesterday. monday, school started and blah. chemistry test totally rocked. i lurrrveeee the chem teacher to bits. yah right. never mind. i'm a science-idiot anyway. managed to finish the supposed-to-be-handed-in-on-monday homework, chinese jian bao, lit journal and studying the CL 1A ci yu shou ce during the cny break. but now, feel as if i haven't done anything. never ending school work. there's forever something to do. and now, i'm becoming a bit psycho coz those extra stuff keep popping into my mind. as in extra work like cme cny jian bao, 1100 words you need to know, reading history and social studies chapters etc. no i'm currently not having a fever. yet. and i'll record all this extra-stuff-that-nobody-cares-about into my notebook and it haunts me till i finish it. the problem is it haunts me for a very long time, coz i record it down probably a century earlier than needed.
can't you just leave me alone coz nothing's funny. i always have this urge to do something to wipe the sickening smirk off your face. but i know i can't do that for obvious reasons. i wished sometimes i could just shake everything off, walk straight up to you, shake your hand vigorously and thank you for making my life miserable. thanks a lot.
yeah, a blog is supposed to be public.

peter pan rocks!! <3333 lol. finally caught the movie yesterday. haha the -infatuation- bleahhh. jeremy sumpter is so -cute-. and everyone's like "i do believe in fairies i do i do" lol. lalala.

i have many relatives. m.a.n.y. though i don't get that many red packets. coz everyone's little family is huge. my eldest uncle [dad's brother] has 9 grandchildren himself. heee. i have so many nieces and probably only 2 or 3 nephews. why. haha anyway they are cute and everyone calls me "jiejie" when i'm supposed to be their aunt. lolll. complicated relations on the paternal side where i actually have a niece who is elder than me coz my cousin is elder than dad. hahahaha. wait let me see. grandfather has 10 children and i think 3 or 4 are grandparents already. i don't even know everyone. every year strangers come to my house. bahhh.

things are way simpler at the maternal side. though my mum has 6 siblings. but i'm so pampered by my maternal grandparents coz i'm their eldest grandchild woohoo. kinda roxy feeling coz at the paternal side, i'm just "yin hui the supposedly-smart tall thin tanned girl" and i'm not. everyone should just stop saying i'm tall. they should take a good look at jac lol. maybe my relatives are just short lah.[yah right. my cousin is standing at a MERE 200cm. go figure.] haha people say i've changed since last year. mehhh. last year was board-ish and this year is skirt-ish all the wayyy. laaleeluu.

yesterday evening was a visit to dad's best friend's house. we call him uncle dog don't know for what reason. nvm. i envy their family a lot. coz dad's best friend is a photographer and he's obsessed with taking photos. hey ferleen! i found someone who's actually crazier than your family in taking photos. lol. he brings his two children [i think aged 7 and 10] out every week and they go to nice nice places and take lotsa pictures. he is damn professional. and his computer skills rock. he creates dvds, like albums on his children on the photos he took. he also creates his own midis you know. prooo. ahhh. and he's a funny person. funny is the word.

counted all my hongbao money already, since i've finished collecting. 30 of them. haha and S$300+ . i'm not someone who cares so much about hongbao money since i save it in my bank account anyway. so it doesn't matter. dad will sometimes add in some for me to bank in as a whole number. haha i'm very different from evil sister. she loses a few hongbaos every year, including this year too. bleahhh. and she takes it damn seriously that i have an official godmother [mum's sis] and she doesn't. ahh whatever. it's not like she doesn't get enough attention. she's usually the youngest among the paternal relatives. my cousins are all grown up. [haha and half are married] kinda lucky to have a cousin of the same age who lives near me (: fine so i get more hongbao money from my godmother than her. so what. petty people #&^%(@#$%@#.

totally can't stand some money-minded people who bring loads of children to my home, claiming that they're being filial. hello, they come only once a year, apparently just to collect money, lay man terms. haven't they come across the word shameless. a grandmother bringing all her grandchildren along, parents not in sight. it's so unbecoming and obvious that even a 3 year old child can guess what they're up to. no one needs these type of relatives, do they. suckers.

- peter pan!! (: -

happy chinese new year(:

tomorrow..i mean today.. in about 11 hours' time, my house will be flooded with people from all over the country[i am not kidding]. my grandfather has 10 children and i think 3 are grandparents already. and my grandfather is living in our house. imagine the atmosphere tomorrow, i mean today packed with 50 over people. hahahha. i love it coz all my relatives' arrival make it seem like real cny haha. the atmosphere rocks, everyone will be talking at the tops of their voices and wishing each other auspicious stuff every 2 seconds. hahaha:D

lalala. reunion dinner was okay. nothing out of the ordinary, though the word homework keeps nagging me at the back of my head. argh. nooo it's cny let's say auspicious stuff. XIN NIAN KUAI LE WAN SHI RU YI XIN XIANG SHI CHENG XUE YE JIN BU GONG XI FA CAI!!! wooohooo. hope everyone gets lotsa hongbaos. hehheh. =P

i am so shut out of the world nowadays. it's antisocialism. bleah. i've gotten so used to thinking that i'm antisocial that now i really am. i know i haven't been good company to everyone around me these days. and i went training today though i didn't feel like it. haha hidden reasons i suppose. managed to scuttle back to the long distance group today for workout coz we were doing circuit and not long run. phew. not that pressurised.

today's a moody day. there wasn't exactly great cny atmosphere in school. was double bored during the free time after hui chun and before concert. didn't sleep well yesterday. kind of slept at 1+. bleah. sleeping doesn't seem like a big part of life anymore, since it's school life from now. not that it's not important. why are my legs aching now ahhh. today's training was...okay since i skipped a bit of drills for the circuit training. *rambles on...* i need sleep badly >.<

been doing weird things these days, like waking up earlier than i usually do [which is absolutely not normal] and sleeping later than i normally do. o.O i'm making it a point to do go to the library alone once a week, just so i can have some peace and quiet time. bahhh. haha since start of school, haven't been going out at all. yeah. going straight home after school and doing all sorts of nonsense stuff like cleaning out all my cupboards and re-reading my primary school journals. haha. when i don't exactly have lots of free time. homework's crazy. but at least it brings me back to reality. there's just this mental note in my brain that reminds me to pay attention in class. bleahhh. i just want to change a bit that's all. maybe to become more independent? so that i don't need to keep asking my classmates about homework stuff like i did in the past 2 years. end of copying homework life yeah. though i still bug people like jac and vivien a lot about doubts, especially on maths and sciences. >.< tsk.

no piano lessons for two consecutive weeks. ahhh lesson fees flown out of the window. great. the piano's rusting in the living room. haven't touched it for...3 weeks? =X lalalabla. yes something else to mention. 310 got consolation prize for class decoration. we were all stunned. yeah stunned is the word. haha. and we even came up with crap theory that the judges must have visited our class the last [since it's right at the end] and forgotten all about the previous classes so decided to throw us the prize. lol. never mind. no school from tomorrow till the rest of the week. i'm not looking forward to monday. end of cny holiday = start of test mania. T.T

cny in 2 days! happy chinese new year eve's eve. (:

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know...

can't remember the reason why i used to cry over this song. it was so long ago. i've forgotten it all. just happened to listen to it on the radio the other day and there was just this weird but familiar heavy weighing in the heart. i've never been so sad for very long. it's the different kind of sad. the "sadness is beautiful" kind of sad. ahhh i can't remember why, but it's just meaningful.
intensified sadness.
buried like a treasure deep in the ocean.

Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Coz I've been missing you so much I had to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away.

ahahaha. changed layout after a zillion years. this is what i called plainnnn. lol. [it kind of sucks but i like it o.O] bleah.

all the 3/12-ers are saying 3/12 rocks haha. after 2 weeks of "warmup", i like my class too=) haha. it's nothing like 2/5 but i feel like i belong in 310 already. hee. everyone's settled down at last hah. cny's just around the corner! i have not and do not plan on buying new clothes. bleah. whatever lah. i end up wearing the same clothes over and over again even when i have lots anyway=X

why did they change the pe system into some new grading system now. it's no different from other subjects like history and chemistry T.T why can't we enjoy pe in peace and not like some examinable subject. fineee pe's an official subject now. boo. and the grading's crazy. to get A the standard is like national finalist [quoted from vivien]. so average people will get C or D? crazyyyy. i shall eithe fail or fare miserably for pe. =(

nothing much going on except for cny class decoration. quite fun lah at least can work together and get to know more people. haha. and i officially have a letting go partner. *chokes*. *cough*. nevermind. nobody understands lah. it's just a super amusing daily...event. lol. people have ultra superb digestive system and timings are always...around there. ahahahaha. still don't get it? never mind! =D

oh, and i officially hate tuesdays. coz of cai mama lah! #*%^@*)&%*%^)@# argh. have to stay back from 2.30 to 3.30 every week. rocks man. tuesday went to turf city near school for training. the weather was crazy. when you look up at the sky you'll see clouds surrounding the area around us except for the place itself, where there is only a whole patch of blue. which means we nearly died of dehydration. rahhh. and tomorrow's the turf city competition for long distance people. jiayou...the rest of us are supposed to train as per normal. -_-"

after nine days of silence...

*stares* aloha. [*echoes*] bleahhh. haven't been online for a million years. actually i have but just lazy to blog. it's weird that i have this habit of once not blogging for some time i will continue not blogging coz it's comfortable. -.- everyone's been really busy and i've practically disintegrated as a whole. oh man. first official week of school and already so action packed. *stares again*

first things first: 310's got all the sucky teachers this year. well, nearly lah. only form, maths and pe[this term] are nice. mr paul tan's eccentric. lol. but i like english lessons now. ahahaha. much better than *beep* H--G. i'm quite impressed with myself these first 12 days of 2004. sitting at the corner of the class is quite peaceful. and i'm actually paying full attention in class. as in, taking-down-lotsa-notes-and-actually-understanding kind of pay attention. woohoo. but it's tiring lah. wonder how long can i cheng1.

so...warmed up to the class already. starting to become quite used to everything i guess. at least still got fivers in humans classes. heh. christine and jac are my human-pals=) and i think our class prcs are interesting. as in they are real knowledgeable. take chemistry class this afternoon for example, lynette poh can't teach lorh. quoted from jac, "she's so nonsense" lol. then the prcs were debating with her and i kind of understood and agreed with them more than with the teacher. haha. i can't understand her lah. nonsense. then the 2 prcs sitting in our row were amusing. they were debating their different viewpoints then after that they came to a conclusion and still discussed it with us. haha. so interesting=)

training was crazy last week. tuesday, thursday and friday coz saturday was cca orientation. [i slacked and didn't even go school. lol.] ahhh then training on thursday and friday were at macritchie. and thursday went long distance. friday went to the sprints/jumps group. end result: practically couldn't lift up my leg on saturday. ahahahaha. i'm always exaggerating. boo. never mind. i like trainings anyway=P [that's true!]

i'm officially not a rep this year. phew. think i'm one of the few in class without a post. which kinda rocks. heh. so far everything's okay and the first big event is CNY mah. which means class decoration. so exciting ahahaha. bleah. and by the way i think my new favourite subject is maths. lol. for the time being lah. whatever. the grass is singing doesn't exactly pleasant one's feelings. in fact, it saddens me. *stares* ahhh the great depression.

yesthisisalongentry. and i simply must mention what happened during recess today. we [fivers*03] were eating in the canteen during recess. apparently CXY[the main character] decided not to put her jap food bowl at the utensil collecting place there. then a.tan a.tee and me went to return the utensils lah. and A.TAN [the motivist] came up with the ingenious idea of playing a prank on CXY. we went to 3/12 and got yanni to write a message on the board with teacher-ish handwriting which says something like this: chua xin yi of 312, you left your bowl at the table in the canteen. please go and collect it NOW. -canteen vendor. [i can't remember what it says exactly but it was funny lol] and we all died laughing.[or was it only me?] i was in crazy fits. but too bad, cxy didn't believe. lol. not fun liao but the idea rocks=D ahaha.

i've been obsessing over the peel fresh apple and aloe vera juice since don't know when. drinking it the second time today lol. "juice of the month" -bleah lameeee. most surprisingly there ain't homework today [whoa] except chinese jian bao [cai mama!] to be handed in by thursday and chemistry daily comments. [i absolutely learned nothing from the lynette poh woman] i'm hardworking! shall finish these by today ahahaha. *beams*

*happy birthday, peishan and meiling =D

back to school.

had a dumb night yesterday. apparently, i slept at midnight when i went to bed one and a half hour earlier.. and every two hours or so, i'll sit up for goodness knows what reason and stare at the clock. then my maid's alarm clock rang at 5.30am. i felt wide awake at that time. and i was damn restless coz keep tossing and turning in bed the whole night. and then after some time i suddenly sat up AGAIN and wondered why my maid hasn't called me up yet. bleahhh. so i stared at the clock AGAIN. it was 5.50am. lolll. then laid back again. after nearly a century, i decided to wake up coz i thought i was late. in the end woke up at 5.55am. stupiddd. was really laughing like siao [RLLS!=D] in the toilet okay. ahahahaha. crazyyyy. and i'm so bloody tired now feel as if i haven't slept for a year. but i'm bored and i currently don't feel like sleeping. what crappp. uhh.

today is/was the first day of school. my first day as a...tenner. arrived at school so damn early lorh earliest in my entire life. blahh. dad's fault >.< anyway it was only manqing and me and didn't see any fivers*03 after nearly half and hour of waiting [yeah i was that early] and still had time to go outside school and meet ferleen!! ahahaha. then mini gathering outside both school gates huh. lol. anyway, was pretty lost the whole day. coz at the start of the day was feeling pretty bad coz was totally moodless and yeah barely slept a wink the entire night. whatever lah was observing people around me. those high and enthusiastic spirits in back-to-school excited moods. o.O never mind. was feeling lousy. T.T

and our form teacher's nice haha. though we do have some *ahem* teachers. lol. after recess was basically crap. slacked around doing nothing in class. oh yeah, discussed ipw proposal with the few people i know in class. >.< felt extremely out of place. really had the urge to run out of the school. quite pessimistic, coz i was thinking i absolutely don't belong to this place. then again, a few months later, i'll probably come yelling "310 rocks!" or something. probably. not now though. very, very uncomfortable sitting at that place in the classroom. i shall get used to it. but it was really very nan shou to see exclassmates in different classes and all i could do was wave to them from outside.

*takes a deep breath* ......

anyway, had a crazy time with fivers*03 after school lol. and ended up at kap, where we did our usual "business" =P shall miss all those after school outings coz i know they're gonna be really really rare. *tries to smile*

boreddd. again. >.<